Happy Birthday Aiden

Happy Birthday Baby Boy!

Charlie Pride

Let me tell you about an aspect that the late and great Charlie Pride had right, and it is this: My bliss and happiness is directly linked to the diligent practice I have of daily kissing my angel good morning. It is important for me to stress this to you in the form of bragging about how absolutely excellent my wife she indeed is, this woman. She bakes cookies, she makes waffles, she is consistently cooking hearty healthy vegetable freshness meals that can only be blandly described with the words yum and delicious, she cares, she warms, she smiles, she works with effort and toil towards greater goals. This woman is a doer of things, and stuff. She pushes and nudges me to be and to see; More.

Sharing

Time

Short.

Compromise

"Yes dear, I am solely responsible for our previous disagreement."

Now we have reached a compromise, and so this too, has passed. We will continue into the future of our destiny

A post that started with thoughts on scams

There are a whole lot of people promising a whole lot of things. A few are true. Your mother has consistently asked me what my "ploy" is. Towhich, I would continually reply, "my ploy is that I have no ploy". This statement has remained true and in such a way as to not to impose that I am in the least bit unambitious. In fact, it has become commonplace that we knock out items on our to do list as we are the doers of things and stuff. Making things happen at every turn, the mother of my children and I dynamic in our duo.

Miss Meechy Beth, she says to me, "put some of your cologne on for me". I do. I sit down. She stands up. She proceeds to the restroom where I had sprayed that stuff, and she chills in there be smellin' my stuff without the having to be around me. I have about twenty-five minutes to get things accomplished.

I'm normally told that I should blog about things and stuff, but I am doing those items which reduces my time that I have to that.


Inside article: I make an honest living working on pools and I provide for me and my family. My wife is a trip. You should get to know us, for real this is going to change your perspective of your own place in time. Which brings up our first question. "what is time?" and now, if you are still with us let's take stride towards the next phase in this relationship. I once told my step-son, "there is nothing biblical about boyfriend/girlfriend." I, myself stand by that. As does my wife who has inspired those very words. And now forward we progress.

I wish that Bernie Mac would come back, because, Bernie Sanders just isn't near the same. My Grandfather and my wife having a political disscussion about Donald Trump and Socialism last night. It makes me smile deep inside to re-envision the highlights of that conversation. The dogs Onyx and Topaz agree.

The phone rings often, mostly it is telemarketers with their scams. From time to time that ring connects two people whom never should have been distant to begin with.

Lasting Impressions

"I'm not impressed." I hear my wife say, as I am immediately interested in the turn our conversation has taken; Chiefly, the increase in my thought level occurs because, I had forgotten that part of my life was even suppose to be, "impressive". We look at the entire creation, the whole universe, differently; Her and I. It's endearing how I can analyze the way she attempts to understand things relative to my position without having any understanding of my position. I catch myself more frequently doing the inverse. I know that it happens the same for her because I understand the human condition. I've read enough books, and watched enough television to at least understand the human condition in it's simple form, that is a thread we do share.

You know my wife tells me frequently to blog about her, to which I respond, well um.. I do.

I and my spouse are one entity.

My spouse is free to alter or adjust any device or account at any time, in a way which is more accommodating to our needs as a couple.

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We care a lot about our kids. My wife and I, this entity I have mentioned. We pray for them together and ferverently; Not even a word but it's the way we do the thing. Even the term, "our kids", has had new life breathed into it as a term; Taking on new meaning and becoming more well defined. (so my wife and I take on young people that latch on to the cares of our heart frequently and I have always found a strong connection to our creator through this channel as I have been endowed with the gift of teaching in several matters and am able to now more fully be aware of my fatherhood statutes given my motherly counterpart is continually rubbing her mites all over me,...)

The All You Can Eat Buffett

She must be trying to starve me this is the only explination I can come to. Last night we went to the all you can eat buffett and I was only able to down one plate of meal food one salad and a bowl of ice cream. traditionally i would have two or three servings of desert between a few hardy meal plates. It was an entirely new experience for me leaving an all you can eat buffett with a sensation of being hungry. thinking of how i can get to mcdonalds for some mcchickens walking out the front door.

My Wife

Hey kids, this is not a "how i met your mother episode". In consideration of the fact that I am now targeting a group that ranges from 6 to 24 years of age in my anecedotes to my children. I would ask all of you to turn your heads if you know whats good for you. {will remain}


to my beautiful God fearing wife, the mother of my children, oh blessed one:

Dear, this entry will change over time. I've decided that in this one single entry alone I will always address to you in the public eye, a small part of my intimate message to you. I have told you time and time again of all the many things I will do, the changes I will make, the things I will become; You, yourself have called bullshit upon all of these the false and unfalse alike. And so, well after a month of marriage that I have enjoyed greatly with you; I told you just two things. Two things, that I will never ever, on my life's own ending do. Firstly, I will never give you biblical reason to divorce me. It is recorded in the bible and said by the good Lord baby Jesus that the only reason for divorce is sexual infidelity. Before God, Children, and country I can honestly tell you this will not ever occur. The second thing I did tell you that I would never do is, "I will never divorce you".


There are many things written about love and almost all of them confuddle my mind. But baby I love you..... My mind heart spirit and flesh know this to be true.


Here are some things I have learned:
My other half is a unique individual and as such will rebel, resist, and revolt against my individuality at every chance given.

My other half will offer support to me as is absolutely required.

Resurrection

"Choose you this day who you will serve; As for me and my house, we will serve the Lord!"


So today is my birthday, and I am utilizing that as a springboard to make an entry here. It has worked out exceedingly in a convienent way that I just so happened to be off from work today. I did not know until yesterday that I would be. This will be one of my busiest and highest paced weeks that I have at my current job for this year. I have not had a day off of work on my birthday when I was not locked up in jail for several years, honestly I have thought about it with minimal effort and I'm not sure in how long. God has blessed me in such unimaginable ways that I could not even begin to attempt to form the words that would convey properly.

At it's conception, this blog was designed for me to have a place to post my experiences regarding my passion for my children on a regular basis. These updates began to be irregular in timing as events in life altered. Currently, I find myself starved for time to even make an attempt at it and thus the posts have become almost rare in occurrence. This is, in part, evidence of the true blessings God has bestowed upon me. As the space between my writings increased so did my daily activities, my educations, my industiralisms. You see, God is continually giving me more to be responsible over, continuing to educate me in husbandry of things, and causing me to take into consideration from an external view a larger landscape of things. He is trusting me with greater things as he is giving me greater things.

My job at the golf course is going great. My food passion grows. My passion for my children can not be contained! Now, let me share a little bit about the exponential blessings which have been seen growing for me in my life. I'm now up to five wonderful beautiful children. Each of them unique in amazingly vast ways, yet each of them having a unity in that they share a great favor from God. Your mother and I pray for each of you daily, we love you unconditionally, and we care for you diligently to the best of our God-given ability. So clearly things have changed. When I speak now I do so as a half of a unified whole which no man shall divide. My other half deals accordingly so. We agree to seek first the kingdom of heaven, to put our children first in our earthly endeavors, to be joined with one another, and forsake all others.

God can make magnificent things happen in crazy quickness.

Twitching

I've begun twitching. At least that is what I would suppose you would call it when your engaging in activities on Twitch. Building some Roblox models and archiving the act of playing some rounds through DnD online has thus far been the main fruit from the labours which I have so dilegently put into this project as of so far. I'm now including in some examples from our channel ENJOY :D

Peace Boi

This is the internet! So... say hello to it I guess?

Untitled

I pray that I am composing a new post shortly.

30 Day Challenge : Youtube

What better way to begin building a youtube channel than by participating in a thirty day challenge to post a video everyday for the thirty days.

Happy Birthday Jacob

Seasons

I have noticed recently that at nights it is getting a rather good bit cooler. This happens every year around this time.

In this article:
   How to run a guild in the game Dungeons and Dragons Online.
   Also known as, Deeper Dungeons in Eberron how to accomplish Badassdom with the Knights.

  We also, are looking at the inner workings of wood powered heat producing appliances for maintaining adequate temperatures of the living spaces. This is a powerful interview at the concept of Man versus nature and literary terms that apply within effectively.

  Qualitative and Quantitative concepts have moments of inspiration.

August

This August has been an interesting one. Had a yard sale; One man came and asked me what price i'd take for the whole yard. I am calling that a success. I am not inclined to sell; So you know. Other things, yea, plenty of other things. So now and then we come to these like major seasonal transitions. I mean it really just "feels" like harvest time is making its approach upon us. I made it to the point that I could invest in a new machine. Seems I've done this a few times in life. Well, I am 34 years of age at this writing and machines have usually lasted me a matter of 4-6 years if I didn't destroy them within the first few weeks. Wow, so many stories there really. Alright, I have noticed this on Windows 10. I crash this Operating system rather easily as it would seem inherently. Anywho, this perticular time, I pretty much got the message thread_stuck_device_driver. I had the thought, you know this is horrible because someone is going to be disassembling their hardware looking for socks and the message was mentioning a software issue wherein sets of instructions did not make it to the proper place within a certain time. At least they are making more readable messages than all those dang seemingly meaningless yet ultimately important numbers that would print out when you were having some sort of system failure. I digress....

I'm working on figuring out a way to spend my time more efficiently. Taking notes is always helpful here.

More to come soon. Time management and such....

Here are a few observations from my perspective, as a single father....

  So the two people on this planet that mean the absolute most to me, are my two children. Don't expect me to ever uphold you or I above them, ever. While also, I am filled by them with so much love that in return I arrive at a position where there is much of me to go around. I suppose it is a thing that I find myself so fully capable of handling great troubles by relying on God and knowing that my role as a role model is being done with great passion. If I appear to really "get into" my job, it is simply because I do.
   Sometimes, and this sucks, children have to really grow up fast. Was not my situation in some parts, however I did grow up fast through experiences derived from handling a 170ish acre farm. Nonetheless, I find it best not to spend much time looking in the mirror because that is simply not the direction I am going. I lost my baby teeth and put the childish things away. Then I dusted them off and brought them out with extreme vigor as I began sharing these experiences with Aiden and Jacob.
   A girl that can tie a fishing hook on her own is an extremely attractive feature. At this point I am strictly speaking as a single father on the topic of dating struggles, if you find this quality in a woman she's a keeper.
   Any honest paycheck has the potential to breed great things. Sometimes great creations can be developed for only a few dollars. Vast numbers of extremely interesting people pass by you every day in public locations.
  You're bound to have people in your life that are always productive to you and will by nature will make you want to strive to be better. These are good people to keep around. When you have bad feelings about people remember that it is not the person that you dislike but perhaps their actions; Is best to minimize contact with these and keep great people close.

Happy Birthday Jacob

Happy Birthday Jacob!

"It's Jacob's Birthday!"

Every year in April, on the third day of the month, it is officially Jacob's birthday. This year I report that your party was themed in Power Rangers and the gift you most wanted was Chomp and Stomp Grimlock of the Transformers from Hasbro. Your brother Aiden and yourself had quite a good time and in this post I will inject the photos and videos of the occasion that I collected. 

Just wanted to take one more opportunity to let you know that I love you and that you are my son in whom I am well pleased.

The Highlights of the day (that I was able to capture on film at least)

Enjoy your 365 days of being four years old little man!

Evensong

    So how is it exactly that suddenly today the words of Gail Godwin begin singing inside my head as if they were some harmonious butterflies flapping frantically on an eerie wind born out of chaos but specifically bred for the purposes of a much smoother something else to come? I mean obviously the easy explanation of this is the simple fact that I only just recently picked up one of her books and began reading it. But that is somehow to simple, to physical, there just isn't enough mojo in that answer. To begin with this woman has been writing literature since before I was even born so it's not like her words have not always been there available on public market for my purchase and absorption. Furthermore, it suddenly occurs to me that in some way this blog may or may not be appreciated by my children; Obviously from the time I first began recording anecdotes and advice in it I have been writing at a level that will not be fully appreciated by them for quite some time yet so at least in the immediate time frame it is all just as well to assume that it isn't even for "them" at all but instead for others at this point. Keeping in mind that there really is something of a high likelihood that at some point in time my children will in fact find great value in these recordings of constant ramblings that on the surface amount to rants that have nothing more to do with anything than the immediate points presented to the forefront of my thought process at the time. Will they even have any clue how to properly discern this? If not, will they at least have a bit of joy within them from trying? Will it give them an avenue to more deeply and intimately get to know their father even after I am no longer with them or the grandchildren's grandchildren after for that matter?
   I really have no answers to any of this but what I have found from it thus far is that it most certainly is for me. It gives me an avenue to convey thoughts that can be looked at upon later so that I myself may journey to a place that allows for the character development of self. It also is for other members of the family that are able to take note of various things, times, places that have happened within the time span that this blog has been kept. It is even important to my very own flesh and blood children in a way that does not even directly affect them at all in this singular moment but yet yields an\unwavering importance in the long term landscape, the "big picture" if you will.
   Simply put, I wish that the single line from the book "Evensong" about mothers and fathers leaving ("Mothers and Fathers go away and never come back" -Gail Godwin, that is how it goes) was always to be completely foreign to them except perhaps in a second hand account taught to them by someone else. The truth to this is that they very much know this on a first hand account now, it is a thing that shames and embarrasses me to no end. Even at this moment, over a year after the fact it wrecks an absolute havoc upon my conscience that I could not have somehow stood in the gap just a scale tipping bit more. I haven't put much at all in this blog in this time, not because there was not so much to put but instead because that spark of ambition that first begain this blog had simply lost its luster and became but a weak struggling flicker of a smothered candle burried under the darkness of depression and unknowing.

    So then, the other day I randomly pick up this book that was just lying there which I had held on to for quite some time and had never before read. After absorbing into my thought the first paragraph, which consisted only of two complete sentences in its entirety, and I had to put this book down for a couple days and ponder on it for a bit as to what it was that I was about to even get myself into in the reading of this piece. Wow, do her words come off so wonderfully. Presumably in a practiced and perfected version of what I have so often attempted to come up with. Two days later upon picking this same novel up again, which is by the way a sequel to another book which I have yet to read. Within the first six pages I have already worn out one ink pen in writing notes and underlining important passages and thinking to myself how this easily could become like the ancient book on programming languages that I own which has exactly every word within the book underlined because of importance...... It could end up looking a little like that one bible I kept so long ago in my youth which for the same purpose ended up completely underlined from first word to last.
     Where is God in all of this?  In fact, I am starting to believe that maybe, just maybe, that is the single most important question. I suppose it wouldn't have ever occurred to me to think of it in this manner had I not read the response from the heroine's not yet husband Adrian. But then after reading his explanation of the subject matter I realized it wasn't because I had a lack of materials to build that building only because I had never put those same materials in that specific order. Ah Yes! Job. Good ole' faithful Job. Imagine how ridiculous of a time that the devil would have had trying to prove his same point using a vessel that had been born to a life of deprivation from the start. Heck, I can only imagine satan rendering himself delusional attempting to throw negatives at such a poor wretch only to be met with amused chuckles from the man saying with an undertone of chuckle, "yep, I suppose it could have gotten worse because it just did." See it was the fact that Job was so well blessed, so joyous, that there was an outlet for this entire bible story from the start. Grab a random scrub that has simply less than nothing and at this point the person is going to simply resort to laughing at himself as the difficulties pile on heavier and deeper. (or maybe this is just my musings on the subject and maybe I am beginning to ramble as I often do when presented with an opportunity to slap my fingertips against a keyboard).
    Now I pray!

"Dear heavenly Father, Maker of men, Creator of creation, I appeal to you please Lord, shield the joyous."

  My children, I feel it is important to let you know that there are individuals in this world, not complete strangers, although foreign to you in this moment as I now write this, who have been interested in your well being from the day of your birth. They have followed this blog to keep up to date pictures of you, they have asked me on frequent occasion how you were/are and have taken the time to concern their self with what interests you have. You are not nor will you ever be alone in this world. I am not certain if "no man is an island" but I do know that none of you ever will be so indeed not all men are an island. Faith, hope, and love these three abide and the greatest of these is love!